Good Morning World!
I feel magnificent. Two days to go in our Juice Feast; it's been 4 weeks today!
I realized a dream of being able to cleanse and live on only juicing for one month.
Cleanse Menu:
4/30 Day 22
Master Cleanser Day 7
Salt water flush
Cleansed my bathroom sink (see below :)
1 quart master cleanse early afternoon
1 quart master cleanser early evening
1 quart master cleanse night
Total: 3 quarts
5/1 Day 23
Master Cleanser Day 8
1 quart master cleanse morning
1 quart master cleanse later afternoon
1 quart master cleanse evening
Total: 3 quarts
5/2 Day 24
Master Cleanser Day 9
2 quarts master cleanse morning - needed it!
1 quart master cleanse afternoon
1 quart master cleanse night
Total: 1 gallon
5/3 Day 25
Master Cleanser Day 10
1 quart master cleanse morning
1 quart master cleanse afternoon
1 quart master cleanse evening
1 quart master cleanse night
Total: 1 gallon
5/4 Day 26
Warm salt water flush, followed by 30 minutes laying on my right side - 2 hour wait to eliminate
12:00 noon: 16 oz. juice of 1 whole organic cantaloupe and cilantro - the most delicious juice of liquid bliss ever!
8 oz. of 1/2 bunch spinach, 1 container grape tomatoes, 3 carrots, 3 stalks celery, parsley
20 chlorella tabs
Night: 1 litre coconut water
Total: 1 litre 24 oz.
5/5 Day 27
1 quart cantelope cilantro juice
2 teaspoons bee pollen
22 oz. cantaloupe cilantro juice
1 quart 8 oz. beet, collards, cucumber, apple
1 teaspoon bee pollen
Hot bath with Jota ozonated Rizol oil (oils of clove, Moxa, thyme, marjoram, oil of bitter almonds, frankincense, Rizoles from ozonated pure raw lipid plant extracts) and salt scrub
1 litre coconut oil
Total: 1 gallon
5/5 Day 28 Today!
1 quart spinach, carrots, celery, red pepper and dill
1 teaspoon bee pollen
My bathroom sink was filling up and not draining properly. Guess what? It was filled with "old waste" ands needed to be cleansed! One morning, I had alot of energy and plumbed my sink myself, clearing out the cabinet below, unhooking the drain, cleansing the sink of its "gunk," and rehooking the drain. It felt so fabulous to know I had the capacity to do this on my own, without a plumber or brawny man :) I also appreciated the black waste as I cleaned it with bare hands from my sink; it was all the stuff that had served me well and now needed to be let go, revealing a sparkling clean drain. The metaphor was not lost on me! I am responsible for my own cleansing; I am capable of my own cleansing; I know what has to be released and what gets revealed under the layers of mud. My purpose is to stay in my own process and not another's business, so to speak. It is my responsibility to cleanse my "stuff" and get to my higher self. It is from there I can relate to others.
On the topic of elimination, my last salt water flush took two hours before I released. It required patience, as I knew I couldn't start juicing until the flush worked, so that meant waiting till noon to drink. I felt pretty cleaned out, and then the last two days, I started releasing on my own without any flushes. It feels like the last of the old garbage making its way out.
On the subject of going back to juicing, my experience of drinking my canteloupe-cilantro juice deserves a description. I am not exaggerating when I say that this juice was the sweetest taste I ever experienced. It was passionate and sublime, and I literally felt all of amy chakra energy centers open, including my sexual chakra. It reminds me of when I lecture on food, and share how a child who grows up on fast food often cannot taste the sweetness of a string bean or a piece of broccoli. Maybe it's because I was drinking Master Cleanser for 10 days; I'm not sure. All I know is that I never tasted something so delicious in my life, and I've eaten all kinds of foods of every nationality. I will hold onto that flavor and somatic (body) response for a long time, going back to it when I need inspiration, a tangible reminder of the sweetness of life or when I want to eat more quickly than my body should be.
Just a mention of my last few days of Master Cleanser. Days 7 and 8, my body only desired 3 quarts, rather than the gallon I had been consuming every day. Then Day 9, my body felt weak and I "downed" 2 quarts just in the morning. What I see from this is another reminder to observe the changes during the cleanse and honor your body with what it needs in that moment. It may shift from day-to-day.
I would also recommend waiting till completion of the cleanse to have any new "processes" done connected to your physical being. In other words, I had originally planned to have my hair done a couple of weeks ago, and my body clearly told me that it was in the process of cleansing and to wait until I was done with my cleanse to go to my stylist. We want to let go of the old before we bring in the new. Also, I waited on a dental consult as well. If you do go, I recommend waiting on any x-rays or procedures until your cleanse is finished.
I am sitting in wonder of the last month. Could it be that in only 3 days I will be eating solid food? If I didn't have some new things in my life happening, I would stay on this cleanse for longer. It does feel a bit weird to think of chewing! That being said, when we commit to a process and length of time, it is important to honor our orginal commitment; mine being to Juice Feast for 1 month; 30 days. That is a powerful methodology for any and all aspects of our lives; stay with the time you allot to something. In other words, if you are working on a project and have designated two hours in your day to focus on it, when that two hours is up, stop working an move onto something else. It's a wonderful methodology to accomplish your goals and homor your commitments.
Wednesday evening, Nubia is having the 5 Girls over, minus Irina, who is in Paris celebrating her life with dear friends. We'll be breaking bread with a raw potluck, though I will start my re-initiation to solid food with soaked prunes and prune water on Wednesday morning.
I appreciate everyone who inspired me on my journey and all the moments that have led up to this last month. I have been empowered by our fabulous Facebook Juice Feast community! Whenever I had a low moment, I would go on FB and see a hundred and fifteen names holding the energy for each of us to juice a little more in our lives; letting go of the old and bringing in the new. Thank you for keeping me on my path.
With Love and Gratitude,
Hope & The Holistic Empire
Sunday, May 6, 2012
Sunday, April 29, 2012
5 Girls Juicing Juice Feast Days 14 - 21
Hello World!
Lots to catch up on....
Day 14 Last Sunday 4/22
2 teaspoons bee pollen
1 quart chard, celery, golden delicious apples, parsley, coconut oil
1 teaspoon honey
2 quarts chia milk with mesquite, shilajit, vanilla bean and 3 teaspoons honey
3 teaspoons bee pollen
1 teaspoon honey
Total: 3 quarts
Day 15 Monday 4/23
1 teaspoon bee pollen
Exercise: 15 minutes rebounding
20 oz. chia milk
1 teaspoon honey
2 teaspoons bee pollen
1 quart celery, mustard greens, beet greens, beet, sunchokes, carrots
1 teaspoon honey
3 teaspoons bee pollen
Total: 1 quart 20 oz.
Day 16 Tuesday 4/24
Master Cleanser Day 1:
Salt water flush: 1 quart water with 2 teaspoons sea salt
1 quart morning Master Cleanser (very warm water from the lightly heated tea kettle with 6 tablespoons lemon juice and pulp, 5 tablespoons Grade B organic maple syrup and 1/8 teaspoon cayenne)
1 quart MC midday
2 quarts MC evening
Total: 1 gallon
Day 17 Wednesday 4/25
Master Cleanser Day 2:
1 quart Master Cleanser morning
Exercise: 18 minutes energized rebounding
1 quart MC midday
1 quart MC evening
1 quart MC night
Total: 1 gallon
Day 18 Thursday 4/26
Master Cleanser Day 3:
1 quart master cleanser morning
15 minutes energized rebounding
1 quart MC midday
1 quart MC evening
1 quart MC night
Total: 1 gallon
Day 19 Friday 4/27
Master Cleanser Day 4:
Salt water flush
1 quart Master Cleanser morning
1 quart MC midday
1 quart MC evening
1 quart MC night
Total: 1 gallon
Day 20 Saturday 4/28
Master Cleanser Day 5:
Slept till 10:40!
1 quart Master Cleanser midday
1 quart MC afternoon
1 quart MC evening
1 quart MC night
Total: 1 gallon
Day 21 Sunday 4/29 Today
Master Cleanse Day 6:
Exercise: Ran 2.85 miles with strong muscles and clear breathing
1 quart master cleanse morning
1 quart midday
1 quart evening
1 quart night
Total: 1 gallon
It's amazing that eight days have passed since I've posted! It's beeen a filling and fulfilling week; one of insight, enlightenment and inner teachings that have changed my life.
On the juice feast end, it's been wonderfully satisfying to move into Master Cleanser (see the book by Stanley Burroughs) for the past week. I had no idea how long I would stay on it, initially committing to 4 days. It feels like such a deep and wonderful cleanse that I plan to keep with it for 10 days and then finish up the remaining of my 30 days juicing once again.
Right before I shifted into MC, I started to see my need/desire for large amounts of juice decrease. Come evening, I was always done, with no appetite for nighttime juice and a keen desire to let my body rest. Unfortunately, I ended that phase of juicing with a batch of juice that was so overpowered by mustard greens that it easily convinced me that, "As God is my witness, I will never juice mustard greens again!" Wow, I never met a vegetable I didn't like, and I've eaten mustard greens in salad, but my new name for them in terms of juicing is Rock Gut! They are so strong.
The other wonderful aspect of shifting into MC was letting go of this not so little addiction I was developing for honey and pee pollen. It's amazing what we can validate when addictive behavior takes over.....like, "I'm juice feasting, so I'm allowed," or, "Don't be orthorexic, Hope, just have fun with it." I could feel the pull to the frig to take yet another spoonful of the delicious bee pollen or to the cupboard to dip into the honey. That was another good reason to start MC. I'm pretty sure I licked that addiction in the bud in terms of behavior. Going forward, let's see what kind of "relationship" bee pollen, honey and I have. I do want to share how deep addiction goes. I really felt a bit powerless to stop!
It's incredible to cleanse on so many levels; through juicing, chia milk, Master Cleanser, enemas, salt water flushes and beyond.
I also want to share about elimination. Day 12 and Day 14 I started eliminating again, just once each day, and it was like solid tar, which in the world of cleansing means that it was old waste, not something that I just drank. That was good, as it showed my body was reaching back to get rid of the old stuff that had been hanging out for so long. Day 15 was more brown, and then I started with the salt water flush. Having never done that before, I found it almost intolerable the first time to drink a quart of water with 2 teaspoons of sea salt. I almost couldn't do it! But the flush out was immediate and thorough, and within an hour I was done and ready to drink my lemonade. The first time, there was a bit of waste. The second time I drank it, it was much easier to drink and my waste was very minimal with all clear liquid, really showing the progress of my body in cleansing. I do want to mention that for some people, the elimination does not happen immediately after drinking the salt water. It might take more time, and the key is not to drink any of the lemonade until you are finished eliminating, or you swell from the salt. This happened to a couple of the 5 Girls, but I'll let them post themselves about it!
As for a juice feast of this length taking you back 120 days for each day of feasting, I believe it goes back even much farther. One night, I experienced blood sugar feelings from my twenties, when I was hypoglycemic. It was scary while it was going on, and I asked a friend to talk to me on the phone while I feel asleep. The cellular miracle was that this time around, I got to heal and shift it in a matter of a couple of hours. Once it was gone, I knew it was gone forever; it went to the core and completed healing from so many years ago. Other times, I felt an upper gastro tightness and anxiety also from a long time ago. Each experience from the past "called" me to trust my body to guide me and keep me safe. Because I resonnate with this cleanse on all levels, having chosen it purposefully and consciously, I could call upon that "knowing" to stay with me during each uncertain moment. On the emotional end, I've felt emotional ups and downs on all levels; from fear and anxiety to ecstasy and passion... and more. Again, I keep pulling on my beliefs and staying in the present, with trust and a compassionate love for my body.
Physically, as I posted a couple of weeks ago, I walked through being completely fatigued, with no muscle strength and winded exhaustion, to feeling the high vibrational frequency of the liquids I was drinking, which filled my body with energy and clarity. Which brings me to another aspect of this Juice Feast. The other day, while at an art opening, I realized my brain was so clear and my core confidence solid. It reminded me of when I was 100% raw. I would have that same feeling. I remember being out at a party or event, where everyone would be eating and drinking, and I would feel like my sustenance was coming form a deeper place, and that I had no desire to replace the energy filling me with alchohol and hors d'oevres.
My understanding and connection to others feels completely changed. I am most certainly not the same person who started this Juice Feast 3 weeks ago. I've healed my core and cleansed my soul.
Today was miraculous on the exercise end. I have not run since last Sunday, and when I ran this morning, there was no muscle or body fatigue anymore! My muscles were strong and my pace was good. I was breathing clear and strong. I knew I was coming out of "the other side" of the cleanse.
It's extraordinary that the body can go for 3 weeks without solid food and support us in exercise.
There are some things we cannot learn merely by education; we need to experience them.
When I went all raw it enabled me to guide clients through it in a way I could never have attained just from book knowledge; the same with the juice feast. Moving through every aspect of this deep and layered cleanse is a gift that allows me to guide others as they, too, choose to embark on it. Just as Angela Stokes-Monarch inspired me with the blog of her 92-day juice feast (which I can see moving into at some other point), I hope my blog makes a difference for those reading it.
.
Lots to catch up on....
Day 14 Last Sunday 4/22
2 teaspoons bee pollen
1 quart chard, celery, golden delicious apples, parsley, coconut oil
1 teaspoon honey
2 quarts chia milk with mesquite, shilajit, vanilla bean and 3 teaspoons honey
3 teaspoons bee pollen
1 teaspoon honey
Total: 3 quarts
Day 15 Monday 4/23
1 teaspoon bee pollen
Exercise: 15 minutes rebounding
20 oz. chia milk
1 teaspoon honey
2 teaspoons bee pollen
1 quart celery, mustard greens, beet greens, beet, sunchokes, carrots
1 teaspoon honey
3 teaspoons bee pollen
Total: 1 quart 20 oz.
Day 16 Tuesday 4/24
Master Cleanser Day 1:
Salt water flush: 1 quart water with 2 teaspoons sea salt
1 quart morning Master Cleanser (very warm water from the lightly heated tea kettle with 6 tablespoons lemon juice and pulp, 5 tablespoons Grade B organic maple syrup and 1/8 teaspoon cayenne)
1 quart MC midday
2 quarts MC evening
Total: 1 gallon
Day 17 Wednesday 4/25
Master Cleanser Day 2:
1 quart Master Cleanser morning
Exercise: 18 minutes energized rebounding
1 quart MC midday
1 quart MC evening
1 quart MC night
Total: 1 gallon
Day 18 Thursday 4/26
Master Cleanser Day 3:
1 quart master cleanser morning
15 minutes energized rebounding
1 quart MC midday
1 quart MC evening
1 quart MC night
Total: 1 gallon
Day 19 Friday 4/27
Master Cleanser Day 4:
Salt water flush
1 quart Master Cleanser morning
1 quart MC midday
1 quart MC evening
1 quart MC night
Total: 1 gallon
Day 20 Saturday 4/28
Master Cleanser Day 5:
Slept till 10:40!
1 quart Master Cleanser midday
1 quart MC afternoon
1 quart MC evening
1 quart MC night
Total: 1 gallon
Day 21 Sunday 4/29 Today
Master Cleanse Day 6:
Exercise: Ran 2.85 miles with strong muscles and clear breathing
1 quart master cleanse morning
1 quart midday
1 quart evening
1 quart night
Total: 1 gallon
It's amazing that eight days have passed since I've posted! It's beeen a filling and fulfilling week; one of insight, enlightenment and inner teachings that have changed my life.
On the juice feast end, it's been wonderfully satisfying to move into Master Cleanser (see the book by Stanley Burroughs) for the past week. I had no idea how long I would stay on it, initially committing to 4 days. It feels like such a deep and wonderful cleanse that I plan to keep with it for 10 days and then finish up the remaining of my 30 days juicing once again.
Right before I shifted into MC, I started to see my need/desire for large amounts of juice decrease. Come evening, I was always done, with no appetite for nighttime juice and a keen desire to let my body rest. Unfortunately, I ended that phase of juicing with a batch of juice that was so overpowered by mustard greens that it easily convinced me that, "As God is my witness, I will never juice mustard greens again!" Wow, I never met a vegetable I didn't like, and I've eaten mustard greens in salad, but my new name for them in terms of juicing is Rock Gut! They are so strong.
The other wonderful aspect of shifting into MC was letting go of this not so little addiction I was developing for honey and pee pollen. It's amazing what we can validate when addictive behavior takes over.....like, "I'm juice feasting, so I'm allowed," or, "Don't be orthorexic, Hope, just have fun with it." I could feel the pull to the frig to take yet another spoonful of the delicious bee pollen or to the cupboard to dip into the honey. That was another good reason to start MC. I'm pretty sure I licked that addiction in the bud in terms of behavior. Going forward, let's see what kind of "relationship" bee pollen, honey and I have. I do want to share how deep addiction goes. I really felt a bit powerless to stop!
It's incredible to cleanse on so many levels; through juicing, chia milk, Master Cleanser, enemas, salt water flushes and beyond.
I also want to share about elimination. Day 12 and Day 14 I started eliminating again, just once each day, and it was like solid tar, which in the world of cleansing means that it was old waste, not something that I just drank. That was good, as it showed my body was reaching back to get rid of the old stuff that had been hanging out for so long. Day 15 was more brown, and then I started with the salt water flush. Having never done that before, I found it almost intolerable the first time to drink a quart of water with 2 teaspoons of sea salt. I almost couldn't do it! But the flush out was immediate and thorough, and within an hour I was done and ready to drink my lemonade. The first time, there was a bit of waste. The second time I drank it, it was much easier to drink and my waste was very minimal with all clear liquid, really showing the progress of my body in cleansing. I do want to mention that for some people, the elimination does not happen immediately after drinking the salt water. It might take more time, and the key is not to drink any of the lemonade until you are finished eliminating, or you swell from the salt. This happened to a couple of the 5 Girls, but I'll let them post themselves about it!
As for a juice feast of this length taking you back 120 days for each day of feasting, I believe it goes back even much farther. One night, I experienced blood sugar feelings from my twenties, when I was hypoglycemic. It was scary while it was going on, and I asked a friend to talk to me on the phone while I feel asleep. The cellular miracle was that this time around, I got to heal and shift it in a matter of a couple of hours. Once it was gone, I knew it was gone forever; it went to the core and completed healing from so many years ago. Other times, I felt an upper gastro tightness and anxiety also from a long time ago. Each experience from the past "called" me to trust my body to guide me and keep me safe. Because I resonnate with this cleanse on all levels, having chosen it purposefully and consciously, I could call upon that "knowing" to stay with me during each uncertain moment. On the emotional end, I've felt emotional ups and downs on all levels; from fear and anxiety to ecstasy and passion... and more. Again, I keep pulling on my beliefs and staying in the present, with trust and a compassionate love for my body.
Physically, as I posted a couple of weeks ago, I walked through being completely fatigued, with no muscle strength and winded exhaustion, to feeling the high vibrational frequency of the liquids I was drinking, which filled my body with energy and clarity. Which brings me to another aspect of this Juice Feast. The other day, while at an art opening, I realized my brain was so clear and my core confidence solid. It reminded me of when I was 100% raw. I would have that same feeling. I remember being out at a party or event, where everyone would be eating and drinking, and I would feel like my sustenance was coming form a deeper place, and that I had no desire to replace the energy filling me with alchohol and hors d'oevres.
My understanding and connection to others feels completely changed. I am most certainly not the same person who started this Juice Feast 3 weeks ago. I've healed my core and cleansed my soul.
Today was miraculous on the exercise end. I have not run since last Sunday, and when I ran this morning, there was no muscle or body fatigue anymore! My muscles were strong and my pace was good. I was breathing clear and strong. I knew I was coming out of "the other side" of the cleanse.
It's extraordinary that the body can go for 3 weeks without solid food and support us in exercise.
There are some things we cannot learn merely by education; we need to experience them.
When I went all raw it enabled me to guide clients through it in a way I could never have attained just from book knowledge; the same with the juice feast. Moving through every aspect of this deep and layered cleanse is a gift that allows me to guide others as they, too, choose to embark on it. Just as Angela Stokes-Monarch inspired me with the blog of her 92-day juice feast (which I can see moving into at some other point), I hope my blog makes a difference for those reading it.
.
Saturday, April 21, 2012
5 Girls Juicing Week 2 Days 10 - 13 Juice Feast
Hello World,
Juicing:
Day 10:
1 teaspoon bee pollen
1 teaspoon honey
2 quarts beet, oranges, mustard and dandelion greens
1 teaspoon bee pollen
25 tabs chlorella
1 teaspoon honey
3 teaspoons bee pollen
30 minute sauna
8 oz. water with lemon
Total: 2 quarts
Day 11:
16 oz. lemon water
1 teaspoon honey
1 quart chard, celery, golden delicious apples, parsley and coconut oil
2 teaspoons bee pollen
Exercise: rebounded 15 minutes
3 teaspoons bee pollen
1 teaspoon honey
1 quart chard, celery, golden delicious apples, parsley and coconut oil
1 teaspoon bee pollen
Total: 2 quarts
Day 12:
1 teaspoon bee pollen
1 teaspoon honey
16 oz. parsley, cuke, beet and carrot with ginger
2 teaspoons bee pollen
30 tabs chlorella
2 teaspoons bee pollen
8 oz. strawberries, grapefruits, orange, beet greens, red chard and mesquite powder
1 quart chard, celery, golden delicious apples, parsley, coconut oil
Total: 1 quart 24 oz.
Day 13 Today:
Exercise: Ran 2.1 miles
2 1/2 quarts chia "milk" with mesquite, shilajit and vanilla bean powders, with 3 teaspoons honey
2 teaspoons bee pollen
1 teaspoon honey
2 teaspoons bee pollen
2 1/2 hour nap
18 oz. broccoli, celery, apple, lime, fennel, dandelion greens, carrots, ginger, cuke and zucchini, mixed with strawberries, grapefruits, orange, beet greens, red chard and mesquite powder
1 teaspoon bee pollen
1 teaspoon honey
Total: 3 quarts 2 oz.
Whew! This is the most fantastic ride of my life! The ups are exuberant; the downs are deep. Today I ran for the first time in eight days. When I awoke and saw that it was sunny and beautiful, and rain had been predicted, I felt it was a gift and sign that today was my day to run. I didn't look at speed or even think about it; just got out the door and ran by the water for a couple of miles. I was actually in a "zone," feeling kind of surreal and dreamy. Of course, that got me a tiny bit worried, as I thought, "Am I physically OK? I don't want to be too detached." I trusted my body and my intuition. Towards the end, I began to feel the fatigue in my body, so I kept repeating, "Look at how far I ran. I did it!" as if I had completed my run already. This helped me tremendously. When I finished, I was wiped! Then I went into some sort of new zone and was completely spaced out as well as being tired. Karita came over for a couple of hours and we shared some juice and conversation, comparing our personal experiences of juice feasting over the past week. I felt totally ungrounded, filled with anxiety and a little unstable and unsure of my wellbeing; I guess I could call it feeling "fragile." The funniest thing actually shifted my energy. Karita got up and accidentally tipped over her glass jar of plum-colored juice, and it all spilled onto my living room carpet! Believe it or not, the act of cleaning the carpet and focusing on something outside of myself cleared my brain and grounded my body. I thanked Karita for spilling her juice, and we decided that now even my carpet was juice feasting! This does remind me that when we are focusing on something beside ourselves we heal most profoundly; like giving service to another or being there for a friend or loved one; this takes us out of our own stuff and into gratitude. It also reminds me of being a rebellious teenager and smoking pot with my friends. When I would get a little too stoned, only something completely outrageous like that could pull me back down; like one of our parents knocking on our bedroom door! I actually thought that my body might be going back that far to do its core healing.
The last few days were the hardest of my juice feast. There is still no physical hunger. In fact, I am decreasing my juices and just honoring the amount my body tells me. At night, I feel a need to stop entirely and allow my body to start detoxing even before sleep. There are slight feelings of gas in the evening, which let me know my body wants rest. What is most difficult is the emotional hunger and the "raw-ness" of my emotions. As I was moving through a couple of trying things that were going on for me this week, I so wanted to be cradled in food. Whatever I was missing; whatever I was struggling with made me long to be embraced, held and loved by the food. I think it was Fat Cat pizza I kept imagining eating. Fat Cat Pie Company is a restaurant that makes organic crust pizza with farm-sourced veges. The thought of it kept calling to me.
Day 10 was the hardest, in that I felt "bottomed out" emotionally. The whole day, I wanted to crawl under the sheets and sleep the day away, being able to validate it by the fact that I am juice feasting and need extra rest. What did I do? I took my day moment-by-moment, renewing the contract to sleep after each counseling session or task I was doing, and that is how my day progressed. At some point later in the day, I decided to clean out a cabinet where I have been accumulating papers for many years, as my vision this year is to clear out all my drawers that have been gathering for years and shift what remains into a file cabinet. So, on the worst day of the feast, I cleared out this entire cabinet and threw away three bags of my old life, including emails from past relationships, performance reviews from so many years ago, before I had gone into counseling and was still in the corporate world, and a myriad of other previously meaningful papers from my past. What a purge! I felt energized and light after doing this. It was a feeling of letting go of who others thought I was and reconnecting with who I am now. It was melancholy and beautiful, affirming my choices and validating me far more than the day of sleep might have. When I went to bed, I realized I made it through the day more powerfully than I could ever have anticipated. This being said, I am also being super gentle with the myriad of intense emotions coming up for me, and the wax and wane of my energies. There is no doubt that I am in the process of transformation.
Juicing:
Day 10:
1 teaspoon bee pollen
1 teaspoon honey
2 quarts beet, oranges, mustard and dandelion greens
1 teaspoon bee pollen
25 tabs chlorella
1 teaspoon honey
3 teaspoons bee pollen
30 minute sauna
8 oz. water with lemon
Total: 2 quarts
Day 11:
16 oz. lemon water
1 teaspoon honey
1 quart chard, celery, golden delicious apples, parsley and coconut oil
2 teaspoons bee pollen
Exercise: rebounded 15 minutes
3 teaspoons bee pollen
1 teaspoon honey
1 quart chard, celery, golden delicious apples, parsley and coconut oil
1 teaspoon bee pollen
Total: 2 quarts
Day 12:
1 teaspoon bee pollen
1 teaspoon honey
16 oz. parsley, cuke, beet and carrot with ginger
2 teaspoons bee pollen
30 tabs chlorella
2 teaspoons bee pollen
8 oz. strawberries, grapefruits, orange, beet greens, red chard and mesquite powder
1 quart chard, celery, golden delicious apples, parsley, coconut oil
Total: 1 quart 24 oz.
Day 13 Today:
Exercise: Ran 2.1 miles
2 1/2 quarts chia "milk" with mesquite, shilajit and vanilla bean powders, with 3 teaspoons honey
2 teaspoons bee pollen
1 teaspoon honey
2 teaspoons bee pollen
2 1/2 hour nap
18 oz. broccoli, celery, apple, lime, fennel, dandelion greens, carrots, ginger, cuke and zucchini, mixed with strawberries, grapefruits, orange, beet greens, red chard and mesquite powder
1 teaspoon bee pollen
1 teaspoon honey
Total: 3 quarts 2 oz.
Whew! This is the most fantastic ride of my life! The ups are exuberant; the downs are deep. Today I ran for the first time in eight days. When I awoke and saw that it was sunny and beautiful, and rain had been predicted, I felt it was a gift and sign that today was my day to run. I didn't look at speed or even think about it; just got out the door and ran by the water for a couple of miles. I was actually in a "zone," feeling kind of surreal and dreamy. Of course, that got me a tiny bit worried, as I thought, "Am I physically OK? I don't want to be too detached." I trusted my body and my intuition. Towards the end, I began to feel the fatigue in my body, so I kept repeating, "Look at how far I ran. I did it!" as if I had completed my run already. This helped me tremendously. When I finished, I was wiped! Then I went into some sort of new zone and was completely spaced out as well as being tired. Karita came over for a couple of hours and we shared some juice and conversation, comparing our personal experiences of juice feasting over the past week. I felt totally ungrounded, filled with anxiety and a little unstable and unsure of my wellbeing; I guess I could call it feeling "fragile." The funniest thing actually shifted my energy. Karita got up and accidentally tipped over her glass jar of plum-colored juice, and it all spilled onto my living room carpet! Believe it or not, the act of cleaning the carpet and focusing on something outside of myself cleared my brain and grounded my body. I thanked Karita for spilling her juice, and we decided that now even my carpet was juice feasting! This does remind me that when we are focusing on something beside ourselves we heal most profoundly; like giving service to another or being there for a friend or loved one; this takes us out of our own stuff and into gratitude. It also reminds me of being a rebellious teenager and smoking pot with my friends. When I would get a little too stoned, only something completely outrageous like that could pull me back down; like one of our parents knocking on our bedroom door! I actually thought that my body might be going back that far to do its core healing.
The last few days were the hardest of my juice feast. There is still no physical hunger. In fact, I am decreasing my juices and just honoring the amount my body tells me. At night, I feel a need to stop entirely and allow my body to start detoxing even before sleep. There are slight feelings of gas in the evening, which let me know my body wants rest. What is most difficult is the emotional hunger and the "raw-ness" of my emotions. As I was moving through a couple of trying things that were going on for me this week, I so wanted to be cradled in food. Whatever I was missing; whatever I was struggling with made me long to be embraced, held and loved by the food. I think it was Fat Cat pizza I kept imagining eating. Fat Cat Pie Company is a restaurant that makes organic crust pizza with farm-sourced veges. The thought of it kept calling to me.
Day 10 was the hardest, in that I felt "bottomed out" emotionally. The whole day, I wanted to crawl under the sheets and sleep the day away, being able to validate it by the fact that I am juice feasting and need extra rest. What did I do? I took my day moment-by-moment, renewing the contract to sleep after each counseling session or task I was doing, and that is how my day progressed. At some point later in the day, I decided to clean out a cabinet where I have been accumulating papers for many years, as my vision this year is to clear out all my drawers that have been gathering for years and shift what remains into a file cabinet. So, on the worst day of the feast, I cleared out this entire cabinet and threw away three bags of my old life, including emails from past relationships, performance reviews from so many years ago, before I had gone into counseling and was still in the corporate world, and a myriad of other previously meaningful papers from my past. What a purge! I felt energized and light after doing this. It was a feeling of letting go of who others thought I was and reconnecting with who I am now. It was melancholy and beautiful, affirming my choices and validating me far more than the day of sleep might have. When I went to bed, I realized I made it through the day more powerfully than I could ever have anticipated. This being said, I am also being super gentle with the myriad of intense emotions coming up for me, and the wax and wane of my energies. There is no doubt that I am in the process of transformation.
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
5 Girls Juicing Week 2 Days 8 & 9 Juice Feast
Hello World!
Juicing Menu:
Monday:
1/2 quart celery, beet and dandelion greens, apple, coconut oil and cayenne
1 teaspoon bee pollen
1 teaspoon bee pollen
2 1/2 pints mustard greens, dill, carrot, cabbage, lime, coconut oil, cayenne, Himalayan sea salt
1 teaspoon honey
1 quart plus 2 1/2 pints beet, celery, carrot, avocado, dandelion greens, cilantro, with cayenne and Himalayan sea salt
2 teaspoons bee pollen
Total: 2 quarts, 24 oz. juice
Yesterday:
1 quart apple, orange, carrot, cucumber with coconut oil
1 teaspoon bee pollen
15 minutes energized rebounding
1 quart apple, orange, carrot, cucumber with coconut oil
1 teaspoon bee pollen
2 quarts mustard and dandelion greens, beets and orange with coconut oil
Total: 1 gallon
Whoo hoo! I rebounded yesterday, rather than run, for the first time in awhile, and my energy was really high! I did 15 minutes on the rebounder to start (mini trampoline, also know as a lymphosizer), not my usual 25, as I wanted to see where my body was at. My energy was soaring and my jumping so concentrated. I was really focused and exhilirated with powerful breathing.
So, I do think there is a difference between the muscles detoxing and the energy flowing. We can be going through skeletal detox and fatigue, when the digestive energy is now being put towards the organ system and blood, while still soaring from our energy centers. I found that walking up two set of long stairs at the library winds me in my muscles and climbing ability, but I could probably powerfully rebound for 45 minutes straight with a whole routine. Interesting, these bodies of ours!
How did I eat 6 teaspoons of honey on Saturday? I must have really needed its nutrients, as now, eating just 1 (ok, maybe 2 :) is so intense, thick and sweet that I couldn't imagine going further. I do have to share something amazing, though; this Wedderspoon honey is chewable. It is so "live" and thick that I am actually chewing it! I have never experienced that before. Maybe it's because I am juice feasting, so I ask some of you to buy some and try it. Let me know what your experience is.
Yes, I did learn that when drinking as much juice as I am to always combine my mustard greens with extra fruit or they are way too intensely strong for me right now!
Yesterday was such a gift for me. I got to have a session with my client on the beach. What a way to counsel. The expansion that occurs for each of us in our process is profound. Just pair the sun, sky,water, air and trees with the opening of the body and soul and you get it. I used to say that I felt psychotherapy should be paired with massage therapy; if first the person received a massage, their somatic self would be completely open to expand to a higher level of consciousness in therapy. The beach counseling is similar. If you counsel from a holistic bent, there are many tools one can use therapeutically with a client; hiking, drumming, singing, drawing and much more to expand the psyche. This simultaneously expands the consciousness of the therapist as well. On another note, there were children swimming in the water, so I guess it's warm already! The sun on my face was a wonderful support to my juicing. I'm sure my body can absorb the vitamin D on a much higher level with a clear digestive system.
I also find that I am filled with a tremendous amount of love for humanity and for those in my inner circle. I feel no different than anyone else; their strengths are mine and their fragilities mine as well. I feel deep compassion for each person's journey.
I want to end this post with quoting Jane Fonda, who at 74, is one of the most extraordinary women around. She says: "Get to know your enemies, and always be willing to listen to them," and also, "Make friends with your fear." Thank you, Jane, for being a role model for our highest potential.
Juicing Menu:
Monday:
1/2 quart celery, beet and dandelion greens, apple, coconut oil and cayenne
1 teaspoon bee pollen
1 teaspoon bee pollen
2 1/2 pints mustard greens, dill, carrot, cabbage, lime, coconut oil, cayenne, Himalayan sea salt
1 teaspoon honey
1 quart plus 2 1/2 pints beet, celery, carrot, avocado, dandelion greens, cilantro, with cayenne and Himalayan sea salt
2 teaspoons bee pollen
Total: 2 quarts, 24 oz. juice
Yesterday:
1 quart apple, orange, carrot, cucumber with coconut oil
1 teaspoon bee pollen
15 minutes energized rebounding
1 quart apple, orange, carrot, cucumber with coconut oil
1 teaspoon bee pollen
2 quarts mustard and dandelion greens, beets and orange with coconut oil
Total: 1 gallon
Whoo hoo! I rebounded yesterday, rather than run, for the first time in awhile, and my energy was really high! I did 15 minutes on the rebounder to start (mini trampoline, also know as a lymphosizer), not my usual 25, as I wanted to see where my body was at. My energy was soaring and my jumping so concentrated. I was really focused and exhilirated with powerful breathing.
So, I do think there is a difference between the muscles detoxing and the energy flowing. We can be going through skeletal detox and fatigue, when the digestive energy is now being put towards the organ system and blood, while still soaring from our energy centers. I found that walking up two set of long stairs at the library winds me in my muscles and climbing ability, but I could probably powerfully rebound for 45 minutes straight with a whole routine. Interesting, these bodies of ours!
How did I eat 6 teaspoons of honey on Saturday? I must have really needed its nutrients, as now, eating just 1 (ok, maybe 2 :) is so intense, thick and sweet that I couldn't imagine going further. I do have to share something amazing, though; this Wedderspoon honey is chewable. It is so "live" and thick that I am actually chewing it! I have never experienced that before. Maybe it's because I am juice feasting, so I ask some of you to buy some and try it. Let me know what your experience is.
Yes, I did learn that when drinking as much juice as I am to always combine my mustard greens with extra fruit or they are way too intensely strong for me right now!
Yesterday was such a gift for me. I got to have a session with my client on the beach. What a way to counsel. The expansion that occurs for each of us in our process is profound. Just pair the sun, sky,water, air and trees with the opening of the body and soul and you get it. I used to say that I felt psychotherapy should be paired with massage therapy; if first the person received a massage, their somatic self would be completely open to expand to a higher level of consciousness in therapy. The beach counseling is similar. If you counsel from a holistic bent, there are many tools one can use therapeutically with a client; hiking, drumming, singing, drawing and much more to expand the psyche. This simultaneously expands the consciousness of the therapist as well. On another note, there were children swimming in the water, so I guess it's warm already! The sun on my face was a wonderful support to my juicing. I'm sure my body can absorb the vitamin D on a much higher level with a clear digestive system.
I also find that I am filled with a tremendous amount of love for humanity and for those in my inner circle. I feel no different than anyone else; their strengths are mine and their fragilities mine as well. I feel deep compassion for each person's journey.
I want to end this post with quoting Jane Fonda, who at 74, is one of the most extraordinary women around. She says: "Get to know your enemies, and always be willing to listen to them," and also, "Make friends with your fear." Thank you, Jane, for being a role model for our highest potential.
Monday, April 16, 2012
5 Girls Juicing Days 6 & 7 Juice Feast - one week!
Good Morning!
Juicing and cleansing over the weekend:
Saturday:
1 quart: cucumber, red chard, navel orange, coconut oil and water
1 teaspoon delicious honey
2 quarts: chia "milk" with honey, coconut oil, mesquite, shilajit, vanilla bean powder and water
2 teaspoons honey with chlorella tabs - YUM!
30 tabs chlorella
1 quart: cucumber, red chard, navel orange, coconut oil and water
12 teaspoons bee pollen!
Total: 1 gallon
Sunday:
1 1/2 quarts: celery, beet greens, dandelion greens, apple, coconut oil, cayenne and water
1 quart: mustard greens, dill, carrot, cabbage, lime, coconut oil, cayenne, Himalayan sea salt
3 tablespoons bee pollen
sauna 35 minutes
25 tabs chlorella
Total: 2 1/2 quarts
I felt a major shift yesterday. My energy was so high level and I felt really powerful! Today, too, I am feeling full of life force. It's a physical/cellular feeling coursing through me, so it will be interesting to see how my muscles are doing in comparison when I go running tomorrow. I feel like my muscles are kind of separate from this energy, and one does not necessarily reflect the other. My energy reflects a body cleaning by letting go of digestive energy and even more so, an energy connected to the frequency of eating all juiced organic plant-based food. When I was 100% raw, I used to feel that feeling after a complex raw meal. As for running, I've taken a couple of days off to rest and honor my body's message. I do know that the achy muscle detox feeling I had early last week only lasted for two to three days.
I am incredibly grateful for this "rest to digest," as I call it. Giving my digestive system a break feels so right. I can see myself, after completing the juice feast, juicing one day a week going forward. It's something I've thought about the last few years but haven't yet tried.
It's amazing. I am not hungry at all. Once I drink, I am sated. My only food cravings are emotional; when something else is going on that is bringing up emotion or intensity, I might suddenly feel a pull to eat solid food and have one of those, "I don't know why I'm doing this juicing" moments. But once it passes, which it does pretty quickly if I let it just move through and acknowledge it, I am fine and re-remember all the reasons for my juice feasting.
Saturday was amazing, being with some of the "5 Girls." Earlier in the day, Karita came over and I turned her onto the honey. When I brought my chlorella tabs out, she took a teaspoon of honey and put two tabs in it; voila! we have a new snack! Irina brought bee pollen, so we all indulged in that. I ended up having six teaspoons of honey and 12 teaspoons of bee pollen! It was fabulous. Everyone seems to be doing great and there's alot of gratitude happening. It was meaningful to share our lives with one another.
I feel so blessed to be in this community. I go on our Facebook page multiple times during the day just to feel the energy of everyone participating in their own way. I even feel the energy of those who are watching and juicing from the sidelines; you make a difference! I see it spreading and spreading, expanding farther and farther and I envision us connected to people juicing all over the world. If each person just brings one juice a day into their life, transformation will take place upon the planet in our relationship to our bodies, to one another, to our environment and to the world. So be it.
Juicing and cleansing over the weekend:
Saturday:
1 quart: cucumber, red chard, navel orange, coconut oil and water
1 teaspoon delicious honey
2 quarts: chia "milk" with honey, coconut oil, mesquite, shilajit, vanilla bean powder and water
2 teaspoons honey with chlorella tabs - YUM!
30 tabs chlorella
1 quart: cucumber, red chard, navel orange, coconut oil and water
12 teaspoons bee pollen!
Total: 1 gallon
Sunday:
1 1/2 quarts: celery, beet greens, dandelion greens, apple, coconut oil, cayenne and water
1 quart: mustard greens, dill, carrot, cabbage, lime, coconut oil, cayenne, Himalayan sea salt
3 tablespoons bee pollen
sauna 35 minutes
25 tabs chlorella
Total: 2 1/2 quarts
I felt a major shift yesterday. My energy was so high level and I felt really powerful! Today, too, I am feeling full of life force. It's a physical/cellular feeling coursing through me, so it will be interesting to see how my muscles are doing in comparison when I go running tomorrow. I feel like my muscles are kind of separate from this energy, and one does not necessarily reflect the other. My energy reflects a body cleaning by letting go of digestive energy and even more so, an energy connected to the frequency of eating all juiced organic plant-based food. When I was 100% raw, I used to feel that feeling after a complex raw meal. As for running, I've taken a couple of days off to rest and honor my body's message. I do know that the achy muscle detox feeling I had early last week only lasted for two to three days.
I am incredibly grateful for this "rest to digest," as I call it. Giving my digestive system a break feels so right. I can see myself, after completing the juice feast, juicing one day a week going forward. It's something I've thought about the last few years but haven't yet tried.
It's amazing. I am not hungry at all. Once I drink, I am sated. My only food cravings are emotional; when something else is going on that is bringing up emotion or intensity, I might suddenly feel a pull to eat solid food and have one of those, "I don't know why I'm doing this juicing" moments. But once it passes, which it does pretty quickly if I let it just move through and acknowledge it, I am fine and re-remember all the reasons for my juice feasting.
Saturday was amazing, being with some of the "5 Girls." Earlier in the day, Karita came over and I turned her onto the honey. When I brought my chlorella tabs out, she took a teaspoon of honey and put two tabs in it; voila! we have a new snack! Irina brought bee pollen, so we all indulged in that. I ended up having six teaspoons of honey and 12 teaspoons of bee pollen! It was fabulous. Everyone seems to be doing great and there's alot of gratitude happening. It was meaningful to share our lives with one another.
I feel so blessed to be in this community. I go on our Facebook page multiple times during the day just to feel the energy of everyone participating in their own way. I even feel the energy of those who are watching and juicing from the sidelines; you make a difference! I see it spreading and spreading, expanding farther and farther and I envision us connected to people juicing all over the world. If each person just brings one juice a day into their life, transformation will take place upon the planet in our relationship to our bodies, to one another, to our environment and to the world. So be it.
Saturday, April 14, 2012
5 Girls Juicing Day 5 Juice Feast
Good Morning World!
I am done with enemas for awhile. I decided to see how it would be if I did it in the morning rather than at night. My body is definitely telling me it is not aligned or necessary for me right now...maybe in a week. Five was plenty!
Yesterday's juicing:
2 quarts: 1/4 cup chia seeds soaked overnight, in Vitamix filled with water and chia water, 1/2 apple, scoop of mesquite powder, 1/4 teaspon shilajit powder, 1 teaspoon unheated, raw honey and vanilla powder
1 1/4 quarts: dandelion greens, celery, beet and coconut water
Total: 3 1/4 quarts
30 tabs of chlorella
Orthorexia :) I learned about that when I went was in school becoming a health counselor. It's when we become so rigid in our health that it becomes obsessive; we constrict, rather than expand.
We want to get it "just perfect," but we zap the joy and life force out of ourselves this way.
No need to be the perfect girl, here; just have fun, observe and honor the body as a temple.
So, I decided to have "chia milk" in the Vitamix, but hadn't really thought it through.
I tossed in 1/2 apple, thinking I would juice the mix. Then when I blended it up and started juicing, I said, "What am I doing?...That defeats the whole point of having the chias, which are so packed with energy and protein.. Then I was like, "But I have to juice it, 'cause there's half an apple in there, and I don't want the fiber." And it was like, "Why did I put the apple in and not think about it?" Then it became, "I wonder if other juice feasters juice the chia when having it?" I actually stood in my kitchen with all these punitive and perfection questions of "getting it right" running through my head = orthorexia! Then, the observer in me finally saw what I was doing and laughed with compassion. I shifted into, "What do you know for sure and what is your body telling you?" The answer was immediate: This is a perfect batch of high-level blended chia mik; ENJOY! And I did, and it was amazing, especially with the mesquite and honey.
I got some even more extraordinary honey last night and am looking forward to trying it. I've been eyeing this honey for a few months in Whole Foods. It's Wedderspoon 100% raw organic Beechwood honey from New Zealand. It's extracted by the bees from the Beechwood trees and contains oligosaccharides, and is known to multiply friendly bacteria in the stomach, good for digestive and intestinal flora; perfect!
I spent three hours in the afternoon on the beach with a dear friend talking and sunning, and today, I am so excited that the "5 Girls Juicing" will be together on the beach sharing about our first week of juice feasting! Sun is my eleixir. I might rebound this morning but my body is clear that it's not going running.
Last night was a fascinating experience around juicing and cravings.
I decided that I was full/content and had no desire to drink my last quart of juice, though I had made it and it looked good. I was also experiencing a little bit of gas, so my body was telling me to rest and not consume. On my way to do errands, I started missing food! I had a whole conversation going on in my head, and it went like this: "Exactly why am I juice feasting? What's the purpose? What a ridiculous idea to set myself up in building a community that keeps me too accountable for thirty day of this stuff! What would be wrong with eating food? I could achieve the same thing with what I know about clean eating. I really want to eat something yummy and feel the sensation." The wild part was that before this conversation began I was not hungry at all. In fact, I wasn't hungry during the conversation; it was my emotions talking. I wanted to be filled up, loved up and made love to by food! Of course, counseling on this every day, I know that food is only the metaphor for what I'm wanting in my soul.
Eventually, as I just sat with the experience as both the participant and the observer, it shifted, and what came in after that was that my life is amazing and perfect as it is. All the gratitude flooded back.
I have to say, I did practice some DBT (Dialectical Behavioral Therapy) by replacing the longing thoughts as they occurred.
I crawled into bed and read a captivating book, that filled me with all the parts for which I was longing.
This morning, when I awoke, I felt wonderful.
What a journey this is....
Please write in with comments on your own longings and juicing journies...
I am done with enemas for awhile. I decided to see how it would be if I did it in the morning rather than at night. My body is definitely telling me it is not aligned or necessary for me right now...maybe in a week. Five was plenty!
Yesterday's juicing:
2 quarts: 1/4 cup chia seeds soaked overnight, in Vitamix filled with water and chia water, 1/2 apple, scoop of mesquite powder, 1/4 teaspon shilajit powder, 1 teaspoon unheated, raw honey and vanilla powder
1 1/4 quarts: dandelion greens, celery, beet and coconut water
Total: 3 1/4 quarts
30 tabs of chlorella
Orthorexia :) I learned about that when I went was in school becoming a health counselor. It's when we become so rigid in our health that it becomes obsessive; we constrict, rather than expand.
We want to get it "just perfect," but we zap the joy and life force out of ourselves this way.
No need to be the perfect girl, here; just have fun, observe and honor the body as a temple.
So, I decided to have "chia milk" in the Vitamix, but hadn't really thought it through.
I tossed in 1/2 apple, thinking I would juice the mix. Then when I blended it up and started juicing, I said, "What am I doing?...That defeats the whole point of having the chias, which are so packed with energy and protein.. Then I was like, "But I have to juice it, 'cause there's half an apple in there, and I don't want the fiber." And it was like, "Why did I put the apple in and not think about it?" Then it became, "I wonder if other juice feasters juice the chia when having it?" I actually stood in my kitchen with all these punitive and perfection questions of "getting it right" running through my head = orthorexia! Then, the observer in me finally saw what I was doing and laughed with compassion. I shifted into, "What do you know for sure and what is your body telling you?" The answer was immediate: This is a perfect batch of high-level blended chia mik; ENJOY! And I did, and it was amazing, especially with the mesquite and honey.
I got some even more extraordinary honey last night and am looking forward to trying it. I've been eyeing this honey for a few months in Whole Foods. It's Wedderspoon 100% raw organic Beechwood honey from New Zealand. It's extracted by the bees from the Beechwood trees and contains oligosaccharides, and is known to multiply friendly bacteria in the stomach, good for digestive and intestinal flora; perfect!
I spent three hours in the afternoon on the beach with a dear friend talking and sunning, and today, I am so excited that the "5 Girls Juicing" will be together on the beach sharing about our first week of juice feasting! Sun is my eleixir. I might rebound this morning but my body is clear that it's not going running.
Last night was a fascinating experience around juicing and cravings.
I decided that I was full/content and had no desire to drink my last quart of juice, though I had made it and it looked good. I was also experiencing a little bit of gas, so my body was telling me to rest and not consume. On my way to do errands, I started missing food! I had a whole conversation going on in my head, and it went like this: "Exactly why am I juice feasting? What's the purpose? What a ridiculous idea to set myself up in building a community that keeps me too accountable for thirty day of this stuff! What would be wrong with eating food? I could achieve the same thing with what I know about clean eating. I really want to eat something yummy and feel the sensation." The wild part was that before this conversation began I was not hungry at all. In fact, I wasn't hungry during the conversation; it was my emotions talking. I wanted to be filled up, loved up and made love to by food! Of course, counseling on this every day, I know that food is only the metaphor for what I'm wanting in my soul.
Eventually, as I just sat with the experience as both the participant and the observer, it shifted, and what came in after that was that my life is amazing and perfect as it is. All the gratitude flooded back.
I have to say, I did practice some DBT (Dialectical Behavioral Therapy) by replacing the longing thoughts as they occurred.
I crawled into bed and read a captivating book, that filled me with all the parts for which I was longing.
This morning, when I awoke, I felt wonderful.
What a journey this is....
Please write in with comments on your own longings and juicing journies...
Friday, April 13, 2012
5 Girls Juicing Day 4 Juice Feast
Good Morning World!
I am excited to be alive.
Yesterday's Juicing:
1 1/2 quarts of romaine lettuce, celery, cabbage, cilantro, coconut oil, nori seaweed shake, cayenne, tumeric, tandoori masala spice, Himalaya sea salt
2 quarts of mango, carrot, apple and celery with mesquite powder and shilajit powder - with water
Total 3 1/2 quarts
30 tabs of chlorella
Well, the juicing is going great. I am experiencing the feeling of being in another world; the world of transformation. I am here but also a little outside of myself.
Yesterday I ran 2.1 miles. Just so you get an idea, my typical morning runs are 3.2 miles with lots of energy. Right before the feast I ran 4 miles with ease. Now I am running 2.1 miles with fatigue and muscle ache the whole way; it's fantastic!
Ok, so you might think I'm nuts for saying that, but really, I am so powerfully in my experience. I spent years in my earlier life battling and suffering over changes, and thinking things like, "Why is this happening?", or "how could I be feeling like this today when yesterday I was able to...". It wasn't until I was fully able to embrace my body (physically, emotionally, energetically and spiritually) on all levels and receive its messages as gifts, that I had a major shift.
Is it hard to run all achy and tired? yes...
Would I love to be whipping up and down the hills? sure...
but Really? No, not really, because I am filled with gratitude for every minute of this cleansing process. I am grateful that I can still get out the door and shuffle a couple of miles in the sunshine by the water and that my body is receiving exactly what it needs.
I love myself and honor this body and psyche that I live within.
This life that we are given is a fantastic journey of self development, and the most powerful part is to look at our own accountability in our lives and stop blaming the world. We get to witness our own self-development! We get to be pioneers and choose our lives every day, no matter what the circumstances. We get to decide how we will walk through each day and how we will be with every single moment. And, we also get to see our own humanity and allow for gentleness and love. To me, that's as powerful as it gets!
By the way, the enemas are still feeling really vulnerable and depleting, and I'm just staying with them.
Wishing you all a magical day of your own!
I am excited to be alive.
Yesterday's Juicing:
1 1/2 quarts of romaine lettuce, celery, cabbage, cilantro, coconut oil, nori seaweed shake, cayenne, tumeric, tandoori masala spice, Himalaya sea salt
2 quarts of mango, carrot, apple and celery with mesquite powder and shilajit powder - with water
Total 3 1/2 quarts
30 tabs of chlorella
Well, the juicing is going great. I am experiencing the feeling of being in another world; the world of transformation. I am here but also a little outside of myself.
Yesterday I ran 2.1 miles. Just so you get an idea, my typical morning runs are 3.2 miles with lots of energy. Right before the feast I ran 4 miles with ease. Now I am running 2.1 miles with fatigue and muscle ache the whole way; it's fantastic!
Ok, so you might think I'm nuts for saying that, but really, I am so powerfully in my experience. I spent years in my earlier life battling and suffering over changes, and thinking things like, "Why is this happening?", or "how could I be feeling like this today when yesterday I was able to...". It wasn't until I was fully able to embrace my body (physically, emotionally, energetically and spiritually) on all levels and receive its messages as gifts, that I had a major shift.
Is it hard to run all achy and tired? yes...
Would I love to be whipping up and down the hills? sure...
but Really? No, not really, because I am filled with gratitude for every minute of this cleansing process. I am grateful that I can still get out the door and shuffle a couple of miles in the sunshine by the water and that my body is receiving exactly what it needs.
I love myself and honor this body and psyche that I live within.
This life that we are given is a fantastic journey of self development, and the most powerful part is to look at our own accountability in our lives and stop blaming the world. We get to witness our own self-development! We get to be pioneers and choose our lives every day, no matter what the circumstances. We get to decide how we will walk through each day and how we will be with every single moment. And, we also get to see our own humanity and allow for gentleness and love. To me, that's as powerful as it gets!
By the way, the enemas are still feeling really vulnerable and depleting, and I'm just staying with them.
Wishing you all a magical day of your own!
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